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OK listen up.  This thing was edited when I got it...  if it was up 2 me, this wouldn't b edited at all but its not, and i dont wanna go over it and fix it.  If you like it read it, if you dont, you dont fucking belong on my page anyway

I don't know what to say. I feel the same way you guys do. If you guys don't think... to sit in this room where he played guitar and sang, and feel so honored to be near him, you're crazy... Anyway, he left a note, it's more like a letter to the ****ing editor. I don't know what happened. I mean it was gonna happen, but it could've happened when he was 40.He always said he was gonna outlive everybody and be a hundred and twenty. I'm not gonna read you all the note 'cause it's none of the rest of your ****ing business. But some of it is to you. I don't really think it takes away his dignity to read this considering that it's addressed to most of you. He's such an @$$hole. I want you all to say '
@$$hole' really loud. "This note should be pretty easy to understand.All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years since my first introduction to the shall we say, ethics involved with independence and embracement of your community,it's proven to be very true."I haven't felt the excitment of listening to as well as creating music, along with really writing something,for too many years now."I feel guilty beyond words about these things -- for example, when we're backstage and the light go out and the roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love and relish the love and adoration of the crowd." Well, Kurt, so ****ing what then don't be a rock star you @$$hole."Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact that I can't fool you, any one of you, it simply isn't fair to you or to me. The worst crime I could think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if I'm having 100% fun"Well Kurt, the worst crime I can think of is for you to just continue being a rock star when you ****ing hate it, just ****ing stop."Sometimes I feel as I should have a punch-in time-clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do, God believe me I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I and we have effected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're alone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours I've had a much better appreciation of all the people I know personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get out the frustration to gather the empathy I have for everybody. There's good in all of us and I simply love people too much."So why didn't you just ****ing stay? "So much that it makes me feel just too ****ing sad. Sad little sensitive unappreciative Pisces --" Jesus man oh shut up...!@#$%^& Why didn't you just enjoy it? I don't know. Then he goes on to say personal things to me that are none of your d**n business; personal things to Frances that are none of your d**n business."I had a good marriage, and for that I'm grateful. But since the age of seven, I've become hateful toward all humans in general only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy."Empathy? "Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the last years.I'm pretty much of an erratic moody baby and I don't have the passion anymore. Peace, Love, Empathy, Kurt Cobain." And there is some more personal things that is none of your d**n business. And just remember: this is all bull****... And I'm laying in our bed, and I'm really sorry. And I feel the same way you do. I'm really sorry you guys. I don't know what I could have done. I wish I'd been here. I wish I hadn't listened to other people, but I did. Every night I've been sleeping with his mother, and I wake up in the morning and think it's him because his body's sort of the same.
I have to go now.
Courtney Love